Craziness xD

I'm not sure where to begin. My last post was in December, and now it's almost the end of January and so much has happened.

My friend moved away, and that sucks because I haven't been able to keep in touch with her really. Whenever we talk it's just an exchange of a few sentences and that's it. I don't blame her, I know she just moved to a new place and needs to get settled and all that. I just miss my friend is all.

My birthday passed. It was on the 20th of January, and now I'm twenty years old. My parents took me out to dinner and a movie with my boyfriend and we had some fun. We saw Book of Eli which was pretty good. I liked the concept of the movie, the only thing I disliked was the very ending. But overall it was a good movie and I would recommend it to any of you out there.

I don't feel any different now that I'm twenty. The only thing that really made me aware of it was that I had to celebrate it. Otherwise it would have been just another day. I don't get excited anymore when it comes to my birthday, I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I'm getting older?

In January I was in the hospital. I had to be taken in because my depression and anxiety was acting up again. That and I've been having nightmares, which is completely new and terrifying. Mostly because when I wake up I'm still in a state of shock and my anxiety skyrockets. I hate it. I did get out of the hospital in better shape than when I went in, so that's good. I saw my primary care physician and he's running some tests. And I've also been going back to therapy which gets me out of the house. And my doctor wants to talk to my therapist which I thought was a bit weird, but whatever. I'm also going to see a psychiatrist so I can get the medication that I need to take and fix my doses that I'm taking now. That's not until February 19th, though. Then there's the "social worker" that I need to talk to about services that they can provide. So there's a lot going on right now.

My cousin is coming to my house to sleep over on the first of February. I'm happy that I'm going to have someone to keep me company, because I've been feeling really lonely lately. We should have fun, so I'm looking forward to it. And she's staying a week so I'm happy about that as well.

AS FOR MY WRITING, I have been working on my story since I got back home. I've completed a few more chapters while also doing plot outlines and character profiles. So I have been making progress on that. I've also been reading a lot of books and playing The Sims 3, (which for some reason I'm addicted to- I just love all the customization.)

I will be posting here everyday now that I'm back into a good routine. Even if no one reads, then I'll do it for myself. After all, I need to keep myself happy too. :)

On another note, I'm really looking for some friends, (because my lack of socialization is ridiculous.) So if you'd like to talk, about anything at all, please send me an email! I always love to meet new people.

Hail and Farewell~

Hello All!

It has been a few days. I haven't been able to post because my laptop is out of comission until I can get it fixed. The good thing is that I can still post through my cell phone, (which I just figured out how to do), so I can keep everyone updated on how life and other things are going.

Right now I'm waiting for Timothy to get home since he's out picking up food. I might play dominoes with my parents since it has been a long time since I've spent quality time with them. I ended up playing some MUA2 with Timothy today which was fun, although we only played for a few hours. We also watched a movie and then some episodes of this anime called Bleach that we both like to watch. (I finally got him to start watching anime with me which is awesome!) Tomorrow two more episodes are going to be coming out so I'm sure we'll be watching those too. I'm hoping that we have a good night and enjoy ourselves.

I haven't been able to write and I can't write until I get my laptop fixed. :'( It really sucks because I want to work on my story and now I can't. But that isn't going to stop me from writing. I do have one story that I didn't write completely on my laptop so I think I'll be working on that story for the time being. Then when my laptop is working, I'll go right back to my chapter. But for now I need something to do. I think other than writing I'll be reading some books and playing some video games. I don't want to get too involved in another story because then I would lose my focus.

Yesterday was fun. I went out with my red headed friend and her boyfriend on a double date for her boyfriend's birthday. (Though his birthday is actually today.) We went to a pizza place down my street and had fun. Family Guy was playing when we got there and we got a few laughs out of that, and afterwards when we went to my house we hung out in front of my house and talked for a while. Overall it was fun and I hope we can go on another double date soon! :]

Well I think I've written enough for now. I didn't want you guys to think that I'd abandoned blogging and I'm just letting you know know I'm alive.

Timothy just got home with the food so I'm going to leave now!

Thanks for reading everyone. :]