Craziness xD

Hello all, it's been a while. But don't worry, I didn't forget about my blog!

First off, I guess I should fill you all in on what I've been up to. I started a membership at a gym, and I'm really excited about it. I've already gone for three straight days and I really want to make a habit of it. I think getting in shape will really help my self esteem and that's something I definitely need. Tim is also going with me and that keeps me even more motivated, not to mention it makes the experience more fun. I'm looking forward to going back tomorrow. :]

Next, the last week has been pretty busy. I've been seeing my peer counselors and going to my groups. That and I went out a few times- I even went to a party that was pretty kickass. I went with Ashley, and we danced and ate tacos. It was cool. Now this Saturday coming up is my cousin's Sweet 15, so I'm going there too. My aunt really wanted me to go so hopefully it'll be fun too.

Speaking of future plans, I have a bunch of stuff that I'm going to be doing. I have appointments, plans with friends, the gym, and other events all happening this week. I'm going to be really busy and I'm loving it. Hanging out with Jenna and Ashley should be really fun, and having a sleepover right after is going to be awesome. Maybe I'll even have a chance to watch some PLL? (Hint hint, Ashley xP)

The only thing I need to get sorted out is finding a new therapist and working with Scott to find a job. After that I'll be all set. Well, that and a few other things- but those are small matters.

This past week I've also been writing! And I'm really happy about that because lately I haven't had any motivation to write at all. I even finished reading a whole book, (I pulled an all nighter to do it, though). I've even been writing in my journal, which I've been neglecting. I'm glad to be doing all these things again.

Anyway, I think it's time for the QotD, which is:

*Do you prefer for a male character or female character to be the center of a story?*

Leave answers in the comment section  b e l o w  XD

OR if you feel like contacting me, about this post, my novel, or just for random feedback- please fill out the form to the right. All suggestions/comments are welcome.

Okay, that's it for now. I should be back tomorrow, and if not, it's because I couldn't think of anything to write about.

Laters.

Hello all, it's 4:32 PM right now and I'm not quite sure what to write about.

I didn't update yesterday, but then again there wasn't much to update- it was a boring day. The same goes for today. At the moment I'm just watching some TV. The show I'm watching is about UFOs or something, I'm not really paying much attention to it. I'm thinking of working on my novel until Tim gets home from work, so when I'm done here that's what I'll be doing.

I'm feeling really tired today and I'm not sure why. But I'm trying to stay up so that I won't sleep all day again. I need something to do I guess. (Which is why I'm going to work on my story when I finish here!)

Well, I'm not going to do the QotD or anything special today. I'm just updating to let everyone know I'm still here. XP

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Anyway, sorry for the short and lazy post everyone. o.O;; I guess it's an off day for me.

I almost forgot, but everyone should go check out this blog! :)

It's pretty cool and I think you should all check it out!

Alright, I'm going to write now. :'D

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Awake early again... even earlier than yesterday. This is getting ridiculous. (I started writing this post at 7:15 AM)

Well, yesterday was pretty good. I got out of the house, which was on my list, thanks to the help of two people. (They are awesome!) I was feeling out of it though so I probably seemed like I wasn't having fun but I was. These new pills I've been taking are fucking me all up, as most pills do when I first start taking them. It'll probably take me a week or so to adjust to them. Until then I'm going to be sluggish- just a warning. I would really like to go out today, but as usual, I have no plans. All I know is I really don't want to be home. "/

Today I'm going to have a lot of time on my hands, and honestly I feel like sleeping the day away since I already know it's going to be uneventful. I know that I need to stay awake though, otherwise I'll get all nocturnal again and that wouldn't be good for me. (It would be very bad, actually.) So the next best thing is doing something that will make time pass by quicker.

I'm not going to make a list today. I guess this will be a new rule- on weekends, I don't make a list. I'll just do what I feel like doing. And what I feel like doing is either reading all day or getting into my novel. I think getting lost in my novel would be a good choice since I won't be thinking about myself and what I'm dealing with; I'll be focused on the characters in my story. So that's what I'll be doing, I guess.

Or... I'll play a video game. Maybe Final Fantasy XIII, Kingdom Hearts: BBS, .Hack//G.U., or Red Dead Redemption. Possibly even a zombie game since I feel like destroying things. I just hate playing horror games by myself. So maybe that's not a good idea. Whatever, I'll figure it out.

Anyway, I've been thinking... about life and certain things. I really want to go back to college. Or at least get a job. I've been working on making those things happen, such as calling people, etc. What I really want is to move out of this house. I don't have a problem with my parents or anything, I just want to feel more independent. I really want to have a better social life too... I hardly go out and interact with people. Of course having social anxiety doesn't help- but neither does staying in my house all day. I want to join a fun group or something, make some plans, and actually go out. I think I really need that, so I'm going to try and make it happen. I just don't know where to start... Any suggestions?

Okay, I think it's time for the...

Question of the Day:

*Would you prefer a story to follow just one character the whole way through, or switch between different characters?*

Leave answers in the comment section  b e l o w  :]

OR if you feel like contacting me, about this post, my novel, or just for random feedback- please fill out the form to the right. All suggestions/comments are welcome.

That's it for today, I hope you all enjoy your weekend! And thank you for reading. :D

Laters.

Yesterday sucked.

I can't even start to explain how much it sucked. But I suppose I can say what happened. I had to go to the hospital for something I thought I had dealt with, but apparently not. So now I feel like I have to start all over with this stupid problem and get over it, again. I was so fucked up when I got home because of the meds they had me on, and the only thing I'm glad about is that they didn't keep me there. (Like they usually do.) And now I'm awake, early again, which is weird but I'm not surprised this time. I feel like shit, so to anyone who reads this, you'll know why I won't be very responsive today.

Anyway, my list is going to be the same one from yesterday, except with a few minor changes.

1. Stay awake!
2. Read a book.
3. Work on my novel.
4. Don't think about it.
5. Laundry.
6. Talk to my friends.
7. Keep myself busy. (I might need assistance though.)
8. Really, really, try not to sleep during the day.
9. Figure out what's going on with my Uncle.
10. Fill out *more*  information forms for characters.
11. Try not to dwell on negative thoughts. "/ (Especially today.)
12. Go out if I have the chance to. Maybe.
13. Have a productive day.

Yeah, I was lazy. No, I don't care if this wasn't very creative. "/

Anyway, I'll probably go start writing since I need a distraction. Oh, and write back to some people and explain what happened. Yup, that's about it for now. Sorry for the short post.

Question of the Day:

*Do you prefer a novel with more dialogue than description, vise-versa, or equal amounts of both?*

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Alright, well I'm off to get my day started. I hope you all have a nice day!

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Hey all, it's my second day in a row updating and even I'm surprised. >.>;; It's a good thing though!

I woke up pretty early this morning, around 7:00 AM and ended up rescheduling my appointment. I'm actually kind of relieved about certain things but I won't get into details about my medical problems here.

Last night was pretty fun, I was on Formspring having two different conversations with the same person, and for some reason it was highly addictive just waiting for the next question to be asked. It's pretty cool, and I was up until 3 AM just writing back and forth. I ended up missing two things on my list from yesterday, one of which was not going to sleep during the day and the other being exercise. Otherwise I did pretty well. And I still slept through the night so taking a nap didn't hurt as much as I thought it would.

I just finished watching Fight Club, and that movie is amazing. The title of my post is a quote from that movie. But I won't get into it since I don't want to sound like a raging fangirl. You should all go see it, though.

I feel like my day is already at its end even though it's only 12 PM. I still have all day to do things, but I'm  not sure what I want to do. I'm glad I got to spend time with Tim, since he woke up at the same time as me. I think when he goes to work I might work on my novel. Or read, whichever I feel like doing at the time.

I think I'll make a list again. I'll try to make a habit out of this. Here goes:

1. Stay awake!
2. Read a book.
3. Work on my novel.
4. Call those people at Bamsi. Ugh.
5. Clean my room.
6. Talk to my friends. xD
7. Keep myself busy. (I might need assistance though.)
8. Look up information on how to get things published.
9. Make plans to go to groups.
10. Fill out information forms for characters.
11. Try not to dwell on negative thoughts. "/
12. Go out if I have the chance to.
13. Have a productive day.

Okay, all done. Hopefully I can do everything there, but if I can't it's alright. I think I'll get the cleaning and calling people out of my way first so that I can focus on my novel afterwards. If you'd like to know what my novel is about, scroll down to yesterday's post and read about it. I'm always looking for opinions and suggestions. :]

Anyway, before I skip off to do some cleaning, I have a question for all of you.

*Which is more appealing to you- a first person or third person point of view for a novel?*

Leave comments b e l o w.

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Hello all, I didn't forget to write. :)

I'm awake very early today, well, at least it's early for me. It's almost 9:00 AM and usually I would still be asleep at this time. But I'm glad I'm awake because I can get more accomplished. I already made an appointment with my doctor for tomorrow, so now I don't have to worry about calling. However, I am worried about the reason I had to call. I've been having this ongoing problem and it seems to have gotten worse, to the point where even my boyfriend is concerned enough to push me to go to my doctor. (And he is the most laid back person I know.) So right now I'm pretty worked up about it, and I just hope it turns out to be nothing. Maybe I'll find out tomorrow, but I don't think it's likely. They'll probably run some blood work first. Then I'll be anticipating... But enough of that. Let's move on, shall we?

I'm thinking of writing a different novel, (don't worry, I'm still working on the other one as well), but I'm not quite sure what to write about. I just want to work on something different for a while, since I'm having a block on my other novel. I'm hoping that concentrating on something else will get my creative juices flowing again. Then when I go back to my other novel I'll have some ideas. I've been reading and re-reading all the novels that I've ever started and I'm thinking of maybe just working on one of those. I'm leaning towards a story that centers around a girl who has been "teleported" into another world, where she meets other people who have encountered the same problem, (from different worlds as well) and they must work together to figure out why they're there, and the mystery of the world beyond their world.

Does that sound like a good plot for a story? Any feedback on this would be great. It's fantasy/action/adventure with some romance. And now I feel like working on it. xD

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I think I'll make a list of what I want to get done today:
(?) = Would like to do, but it's alright if I don't

1. Call my doctor. (done)
2. Work on my novel.
3. Stay awake and not take any naps.
4. Talk to my friends and try to make some plans.
5. Exercise, even if it's just jumping jacks or running up and down the stairs.
6. Spend some time with my Aunt, if she comes to visit.
7. Get some drawing done (?)
8. Continue reading that book (?)
9. Play a video game (?)
10. Keep myself busy.

And I think that's it! It's nothing too difficult, so I should be able to do it. The hardest thing will be staying awake though, since I usually take a nap. I'm trying to break that habit, so I'm going to force myself to stay up by keeping my mind occupied.

Alright, onto the second thing on my list. I'll update tomorrow, or later. We'll see if I can do all the things on my list. :D

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I am up early again! I'm not sure how but I randomly woke up at 6 AM exactly. Weird, but cool. Now I can get some things done. So after I finish posting I will get to my writing. I also forgot that today is Friday so it's cleaning day too. And I also want to go over my friend's house again today, if I can get a ride.

I don't exactly remember falling asleep yesterday. I do know that I was reading, but when I woke up my book wasn't in my hands, so maybe Timothy put it away? Otherwise that's really creepy. >.> I'll ask when he wakes up.

I basically said what my plans were for today, so no need to go into that. As for my writing, I'm going to work on it after I clean, because I know that if I start writing I won't get to my cleaning because I lose my sense of time when I get into something. So clean first, write after. Then try to see if I can get a ride to my friend's house. So I changed the order a bit. I'm not sure what's happening tonight, as far as what Timothy is doing- whether or not he is going to play a game or if we're going to do something together. I think I'm going to encourage him to play a game since most of this week he spent with me, so he definitely deserves to play his game if that's what he wants to do. If he does that I'll just write or continue reading the Vampire Diaries novel. So yeah, I think that's all I'm doing today.

Now, off to clean! It's not fun but somebody has to do it.

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*sigh* Good afternoon people! I woke up late, yet again. I messed up my whole sleeping schedule and I have to figure out how to get it back.

So today, I'm going to get started on the character profiles which should be fun because I find it to be similar to a survey, I just need to make sure it's in the character's voices and not my own. Then I will edit a bit if I have to, and continue with writing. I really want to draw for some reason though. I always like to draw the characters for my stories, mostly because it gives me a face to work with and I love to draw so it's a win-win situation. Maybe when I put in my contacts today and I have those two hours of actually being able to see clearly I'll take that as a chance to draw. :] (unless my eyes get irritated, then the whole plan would backfire!)

It's already 1:11 PM and I really dislike that I haven't been waking up at 6 AM like I used to. I'm going to try and get that schedule back, because the way it is now I feel like I don't have enough time in the day. I think I know how to fix it though, I just need to make sure I stay up the whole day and not take any naps so that I'll be tired at night and not in the day. Either that or I could take a Trazedone to put me to sleep. But I hate relying on pills so I'll try the first idea. So hopefully it will work!

I did get to read Vampire Diaries, but I didn't read much. So far though it's alright. After all, I'm in the beginning and that's where everything is introduced so I have to be patient for the "OMG that was cool" parts. I plan to read some more of it before I go to sleep.

I've also been thinking and I've come to the conclusion that I have to get out more. I want to make plans and stick to them. I need to spend time with my friends, and I need to do this soon because I'm tired of being a hermit. My cousin is reliable, so that's good. I just have to figure out how I'm going to get a ride there. Because she lives fourty minutes away from me. The thing that's cool though is that when I asked her if I could come over she said anytime, so I'm going to take her up on that offer. I have to get out of this house!

On another note, I think I'm going to take my leave now. I feel rushed for some reason. So off to get some work done!

Thanks for reading, like always! :]