Craziness xD

Hello all! I'm in a great mood today. :D

I saw my peer counselor this morning, which was pretty interesting. I hardly ever talk when I'm with her but today I wouldn't shut up. She even called me hyper. I'm a little sad that Tim didn't want to go to the gym today, and I would have gone by myself but I couldn't find a ride for the life of me. So I made him promise that we would go tomorrow. And I expect to make up for missing today's session. It's kind of a good thing that we didn't go today though, since I kind of injured my foot yesterday. But even with my foot hurting, I still wanted to go. Oh well.

Anyway, right now I'm just waiting to be picked up by Jenna, and then we're going to pick up Ashley at her house and then we're headed off to the mall. It sucks that I don't have much money to spend, (I literally have about ten dollars to my name), but it's still awesome to get out of the house and spend some time with my friends. After that I'm going to Ashley's house to sleep over, which is always fun. It's been a while since I slept over there so I'm pretty happy about it. I think we'll probably watch some movies or PLL. I'm not sure but I think we might go out to dinner- and I don't have money. "/ But I'm sure we'll figure something out.

Tomorrow I have to go see this woman about my therapist and junk, and before that I'm hitting up the gym, so I'm not sure if I'll be able to write. I'm not sure what I'm doing after the appointment but I'll try to at least update even if it is a short post.

I really want to take some pictures today at the mall. That and buy a book.

I also want to work on my novel, and I'm thinking that tomorrow would be a good day for that. So I think that's what I'll do after I get home.

I'm skipping the QotD today since I'm feeling a bit lazy, but I'll definitely post one up the next time I update. I also think I'll be adding a new section to my posts, but I'm not telling yet!

Now I think it's time for me to go, so let's hope that today is awesome, not just for me but for everyone else as well. :]

Laters.

I'm not sure where to begin. My last post was in December, and now it's almost the end of January and so much has happened.

My friend moved away, and that sucks because I haven't been able to keep in touch with her really. Whenever we talk it's just an exchange of a few sentences and that's it. I don't blame her, I know she just moved to a new place and needs to get settled and all that. I just miss my friend is all.

My birthday passed. It was on the 20th of January, and now I'm twenty years old. My parents took me out to dinner and a movie with my boyfriend and we had some fun. We saw Book of Eli which was pretty good. I liked the concept of the movie, the only thing I disliked was the very ending. But overall it was a good movie and I would recommend it to any of you out there.

I don't feel any different now that I'm twenty. The only thing that really made me aware of it was that I had to celebrate it. Otherwise it would have been just another day. I don't get excited anymore when it comes to my birthday, I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I'm getting older?

In January I was in the hospital. I had to be taken in because my depression and anxiety was acting up again. That and I've been having nightmares, which is completely new and terrifying. Mostly because when I wake up I'm still in a state of shock and my anxiety skyrockets. I hate it. I did get out of the hospital in better shape than when I went in, so that's good. I saw my primary care physician and he's running some tests. And I've also been going back to therapy which gets me out of the house. And my doctor wants to talk to my therapist which I thought was a bit weird, but whatever. I'm also going to see a psychiatrist so I can get the medication that I need to take and fix my doses that I'm taking now. That's not until February 19th, though. Then there's the "social worker" that I need to talk to about services that they can provide. So there's a lot going on right now.

My cousin is coming to my house to sleep over on the first of February. I'm happy that I'm going to have someone to keep me company, because I've been feeling really lonely lately. We should have fun, so I'm looking forward to it. And she's staying a week so I'm happy about that as well.

AS FOR MY WRITING, I have been working on my story since I got back home. I've completed a few more chapters while also doing plot outlines and character profiles. So I have been making progress on that. I've also been reading a lot of books and playing The Sims 3, (which for some reason I'm addicted to- I just love all the customization.)

I will be posting here everyday now that I'm back into a good routine. Even if no one reads, then I'll do it for myself. After all, I need to keep myself happy too. :)

On another note, I'm really looking for some friends, (because my lack of socialization is ridiculous.) So if you'd like to talk, about anything at all, please send me an email! I always love to meet new people.

Hail and Farewell~

Well today I woke up pretty early. Around 6 A.M. and I didn't go back to sleep. I'm waiting for Timothy to wake up so that I can start getting ready. Which is right about now, since the alarm just rang and scared the hell out of me. I'm fine now though, but it definitely startled me.

Today I'm planning on going to my Aunt's house for Thanksgiving which should be at least interesting. I don't really feel comfortable whenever I visit my family because I'm not exactly a people person so I don't socialize with them. That and I know Timothy is most likely going to be uncomfortable since he doesn't know anyone there. So I'm just hoping that the visit goes well and that we'll be able to leave early. I just want to relax at home with Timothy and watch some movies or something. But my mother is pressuring us to make an appearance so I have to at least do thata for her.

I'm watching some TV now, since Timothy just pressed snooze and went back to sleep. I think I'm going to go soon though. And I hope everyone does have a happy day today with their families or loved ones. I'm not sure what I'm thankful for, but what is everyone else thankful for? Love, friends, family? There are a lot of things to be thankful for.

Well, I'm off now. Time to get ready for this long day. And thank you for reading, like always. :)

I am up early again! I'm not sure how but I randomly woke up at 6 AM exactly. Weird, but cool. Now I can get some things done. So after I finish posting I will get to my writing. I also forgot that today is Friday so it's cleaning day too. And I also want to go over my friend's house again today, if I can get a ride.

I don't exactly remember falling asleep yesterday. I do know that I was reading, but when I woke up my book wasn't in my hands, so maybe Timothy put it away? Otherwise that's really creepy. >.> I'll ask when he wakes up.

I basically said what my plans were for today, so no need to go into that. As for my writing, I'm going to work on it after I clean, because I know that if I start writing I won't get to my cleaning because I lose my sense of time when I get into something. So clean first, write after. Then try to see if I can get a ride to my friend's house. So I changed the order a bit. I'm not sure what's happening tonight, as far as what Timothy is doing- whether or not he is going to play a game or if we're going to do something together. I think I'm going to encourage him to play a game since most of this week he spent with me, so he definitely deserves to play his game if that's what he wants to do. If he does that I'll just write or continue reading the Vampire Diaries novel. So yeah, I think that's all I'm doing today.

Now, off to clean! It's not fun but somebody has to do it.

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*sigh* Good afternoon people! I woke up late, yet again. I messed up my whole sleeping schedule and I have to figure out how to get it back.

So today, I'm going to get started on the character profiles which should be fun because I find it to be similar to a survey, I just need to make sure it's in the character's voices and not my own. Then I will edit a bit if I have to, and continue with writing. I really want to draw for some reason though. I always like to draw the characters for my stories, mostly because it gives me a face to work with and I love to draw so it's a win-win situation. Maybe when I put in my contacts today and I have those two hours of actually being able to see clearly I'll take that as a chance to draw. :] (unless my eyes get irritated, then the whole plan would backfire!)

It's already 1:11 PM and I really dislike that I haven't been waking up at 6 AM like I used to. I'm going to try and get that schedule back, because the way it is now I feel like I don't have enough time in the day. I think I know how to fix it though, I just need to make sure I stay up the whole day and not take any naps so that I'll be tired at night and not in the day. Either that or I could take a Trazedone to put me to sleep. But I hate relying on pills so I'll try the first idea. So hopefully it will work!

I did get to read Vampire Diaries, but I didn't read much. So far though it's alright. After all, I'm in the beginning and that's where everything is introduced so I have to be patient for the "OMG that was cool" parts. I plan to read some more of it before I go to sleep.

I've also been thinking and I've come to the conclusion that I have to get out more. I want to make plans and stick to them. I need to spend time with my friends, and I need to do this soon because I'm tired of being a hermit. My cousin is reliable, so that's good. I just have to figure out how I'm going to get a ride there. Because she lives fourty minutes away from me. The thing that's cool though is that when I asked her if I could come over she said anytime, so I'm going to take her up on that offer. I have to get out of this house!

On another note, I think I'm going to take my leave now. I feel rushed for some reason. So off to get some work done!

Thanks for reading, like always! :]

Good Morning all!

Well, yesterday was definitely not a day that I want to repeat. It basically consisted of me making calls every twenty minutes back and forth from my doctor to my pharmacy. At one point I actually yelled at the person who picked up the doctors phone because it was always the same person and at that point I had already missed one of my pills and I was ready to kill someone. The only reason I was so mad was because everytime I called I would be put on hold and nobody would pick up, and trust me I would be on hold for like thirty minutes at a time, and then three times that I called they actually hung up on me. So naturally I was angry and I yelled at the woman to transfer me to an actual human being that I could talk to immediately. And it seems that being a bit more aggressive worked because within a minute I was talking to a woman named Sue who got what I needed done. I'm just mad because it took me all day.

I did get some other things done, like cleaning my room and organizing some papers. I even got Timothy to clean, which is good. Then at night I watched Heroes which was awesome as usual. The new (bad?) guy seems to have a new power every episode and I still haven't figured him out. Then there's Sylar, who's now taking over Matt's body- I completely didn't expect that at all and now I'm wondering what Sylar is going to do now that he has control over this guy's body. I'm just waiting for the real Sylar to come back and be all badass, and see him face off against the new bad guy. Anyway, enough ranting about that.

So today I do have some things to do. I'm planning on calling the cash assistance place since I didn't have a chance to yesterday, and I'm also going to get my glasses repaired today. (Which I need really badly.) I got to call and find out the information about my contacts yesterday so I'm glad that's done. Then I guess I'm going to read or try to write, but I really hate writing when I don't have my laptop and I still haven't received the enrollment papers in the mail. I hope I get them today.

My mood today is slightly better than yesterday, I guess. I'm still a bit down but I'm just trying to ignore it. So I'm going to try and keep myself busy so I don't think of things. I think maybe hanging out with a friend would help, maybe I should try to make some plans.

Okay, I think I'm going to go start my day now. I want to get fixing my glasses out of the way so I'll do that first. Then making some calls. And whatever else I can think of.

Thanks for reading, see you guys later!