Craziness xD

But it's alright, hopefully the medicine I took will help.

Otherwise I'm actually really happy. I found a CD that had all of my stories in it, and it was a CD I'd forgotten about so I was wicked happy when I found it. I now have it in my flashdrive too and I am planning on getting started on writing again! So I'm happy that now I can write again and resume where I left off.

Other than that I've been good when it comes to my ansiety. I've gone out a lot the past Sunday. To stores, and on Thanksgiving I could control my anxiety even though 'they' were there. So I think I'm doing good. I don't want to jinx it though. On the 3rd I have to go for a check-up then on the 8th I have to meet my old therapist again. And start new treatment. I'm hoping by then my insurance will kick in, because if it doesn't I have to call my therapist back and tell her I don't have insurance anymore. I just hope I have it by then, it would help me out a lot since I have prescriptions I have to pick up and I can't pay for them.

Well, enough of that. My headache seems to be getting a little better. I think today I'm going to write, read, go on PSHome, and do my other regular activities. I'm glad to be back on schedule, and I'm glad I'm not taking those addictive pills anymore! I still have to ween off of them, but I'm now taking another pill for my anxiety instead. Which I only take when I'm anxious, so I skip some of them which is good. So yeah, that's enough pill talk.

I think I'm done with this update. I don't think I forgot anything. Well, I want to go to my friend's house but I don't need to put that here. (Even though I just did.) Okay, I'm off to get my day started, even though it's past 12 PM now haha.

Thanks for reading! :D

Well first, the song I'm obsessed with. There for Tomorrow- "A little faster." The Song I'm Obsessed With Right Now

Now, on to other things. I did get to get back to sleep. Actually within five minutes of getting off my computer I K.O.ed. I'm up now but unhappy. Tim is going to a party and I'm not going because my sibling and her asshole of a "fiance" are going to be there, and I'm not up for the drama. I hate both of them, I don't care what anyone says. If people knew what they did they would understand. Until then, all I'm going to hear is "Oh, why do you hate your sister, she's FAMILY." And what I say to that is fuck that, I can choose my own family. I have friends that are better sister's than her. I don't need HER at all. After all the shit she's pulled, and she's the type that doesn't apologize for anything she's done. So it's basically an end to the "relationship" we had there, unless she wisens up, which I doubt will happen.

Sorry for all the cussing. I'm a little angry right now. I'm not changing anything I said though.

So yeah, my Tim is going to his godmother's house for a party, and I'm staying home. I still haven't met his godmother, and I would like to. I'm not going to make drama for him and I don't want him to see me unhappy because then he won't enjoy himself. And I don't want that because then there would be no point in him going if he's thinking about how depressed I am at home. So I'm just going to keep myself busy as always. With whatever means I have. I think I'll go on PSHome. And just chat with random people. That would probably help. Everytime I go on there the time passes quickly. So I think that's what I'll do.

Now, off I go to start my day. Text me if you know me. Send me an email if you want to talk that way and don't know me personally. For people with a PS3, my PSN is Crimson_Chain, send me a message and add me.

Done.

Thanks for reading, and have a nice day!

I can't sleep right now. I woke up in a panic because I had a bad dream. I'm not sure what the dream was, but I know I don't remember it. It's weird but I can't go back to sleep because of it. I have to stay up because when I lay down I feel my boody tense up. But enough of that, I don't want to think about it anymore.

Today is Sunday, and Timothy is going to his Godmother's house for a party that I don't know how long is going to take. I'm not sure what I feel like doing today. Maybe some more reading, or maybe I'll write a little bit. Or a videogame, online, and sleeping might work. I don't know. It's still way too early for me to be up. Maybe I'll take an Ambien and sleep that way. But I hate taking pills if I can help taking them.

I feel like I've been doing good with my anxiety. The anxiety I'm having now. I have this stuffy nose that's pretty irritating. Maybe I'll blow my nose and see if it goes away. I need my nose so I can breathe. I'm looking forward to my red headed friend completing another chapter, especially since she has been on a roll and wrote two chapters each of the last two days. So I'm proud of her. And I'm glad she's sending me the chapters to read. Maybe today she'll be able to do the same thing.

I'm so tired, but I can't sleep. This is annoying. I think I'll read a book and maybe I'll fall asleep that way. I'm going to try though. I don't want to be up right now.

So on that note, I'll take my leave. Good Morning everyone and also Goodnight since I'm going to sleep.

Thanks for reading!

Well I was busy today. I was home all day and had all this time to myself. I cleaned, read, played some videogames, and read some manga. And I was basically on Twitter and Facebook all day. I posted a bunch of photo's from vacations that I had and it took a very long time to sort them out. Then Facebook decided it didn't want to cooperate with me so I had to figure out how to put my pictures in. It was a bit irritating but it definitely kept me busy.

This is going to be a short update, since it's late and I'm going to read a bit before I head to sleep. I had a really busy day which was alright. I didn't need to take my extra anxiety pills which I think is awesome. And after I read I'm going to drift off to sleep. So that's all I have to say. Goodnight everyone. And thanks for reading!

Well I just woke up from a good night's rest ehich hardly ever happens so I'm happy about that. Timothy works today, until 2, so I don't know what I'm going to do yet.

My ride isn't pulling through to drop me off at my friend's house, so I'm sad about that. I had told her I was going to go over her house but I really don't have a ride and going on a bus would give me a straight up anxiety attack. I feel really bad about it, and if she reads this I want her to know I'm sorry because I know this weeks was the only chance I could visit you since you're going back to college. :(

I guess since I'm not going over there I should at least make some plans. They will be similar to what I did yesterday. I'll probably play a videogame, read, and try to write. I just haven't been in the writing mood lately. I need to get back into it but I'm still depressed over losing all my hours of typing because it wasn't in my flashdrive. (Which I swore it was). But there's nothing I can do except retype, and I'm just not up for it. I don't want to redo everything I just did. But I will have to eventually. Not today though.

I'm going to take a hot shower and then get to starting my day. I'll make some coffee for Timothy and make him a lunch to bring to work. Since I like doing that for him. Well, off to do whatever.

Sorry this was a lame update, but thanks for reading! :)

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To put it lightly, I'm a bit pissed off. I was supposed to go to my friend's house today but my mother decided to go out for Black Friday and go shopping. I didn't even know she was going to do that and she had already known I had plans. She said she's doing all the Christmas shopping today and I know that's going to take her FOREVER. So I know that I'm not going to be able to make it to her house. And that makes me angry because I had already made arrangements with her and I absolutely hate to break arrangements because I hate when people do that to me. And I know that I'm not going to be able to go, so this sucks. I think I'll ask her what she's doing tomorrow and hopefully she won't be busy so I can at least visit her for a little bit.

On another note, I got a new game. Uncharted 2: Among Theives. It's  a really awesome game and I've been playing it while my mother is out. That and I've been reading. I'm not sure what I want to do now, I'm getting tired and I'm a little hungry so maybe I'll go eat or something.

I'm still mad. I'm going to have a talk with my mother when she gets back.

Now I'm off. Laters.

Black is my favorite color! :D

Just thought I'd add that in here.

So now to what I was going to say. I think I might try going to GameStop today to buy a game. But if it's too crowded I'll just go tomorrow. I don't have the patience to wait for a long time just to get the one game that I want.

Other than that I think I'm going to devote this day to reading my two new books that I bought, since I just put them in my shelf and didn't start them. So I'm going to do that today. And if I finish reading them early, which I most likely will since I read fast, I'll start writing. I've just been staying away from writing ever since I found out my flashdrive didn't have all the stories that I typed. So I'm pretty pissed about that. And the only way to retrieve them is from my laptop that I had before this, but that one is out of comission until they fix the inside of it. Then I can get all those hours of typing back. And be happy.

On another note, the game I'm planning on buying is Left For Dead 2, which is a zombie survival game that is co-op so I can play it with Timothy. So that's the main reason I want it. That and I love that genre of games. So hopefully I'll be able to get it today. Then we can play! :D And if we beat it before a week ends we can trade it for another game which would be cool.

Well, I think I've typed what I wanted to type. Maybe I'll go on PSHome today. My PSN is Crimson_Chain if anyone wants to add me. Just make sure you mention that you got my PSN from my blog, otherwise I'll be all WTF is this? So yeah, add me if you want to.

Now off to do some reading, then if I have time do the other things I said.

Thanks for reading! :)

So I had to see my sibling today when I went to my Aunt's house for Thanksgiving dinner. I didn't expect her to be there and it startled me when she was there with her "fiance". That just put me in an awful mood and I didn't acknowledge them at all. I just held my head high and did what I wanted. And I got to see my neices again, so that's good. This time the older one ran up to me and gave me a hug, and that made me feel so much better. It was worth putting up with them so I could see the kids.

On another note, the dinner was awesome. I had potato salad, rice, meatballs, some stuffing mixture, and other things. I didn't have turkey, because I don't like it. I always found that funny. I think I don't like it because it's too dry. Or something. But back to what I was saying- the food was good. I had some cake afterwards with this white frosting that was delicious. I still have two pieces left that I brought home with me.

Well, Tim is sleeping and I'm about to join him. So goodnight to everyone and I hope everyone had a pleasant Thanksgiving. As always, thank you for reading. :)