Craziness xD

Hello, and good afternoon!

I just woke up and it's already 12:47 PM. Usually I'm up earlier than that but last night I didn't sleep well. I bought three books yesterday, one was about vampires, another about how to draw Manga, and the last one contains over 40,000 names from different origins and their meanings. I've been going through the name book because I thought it would be nice to have so that I can highlight names that I like and possibly use them for my novels. It also has some interesting lists in it, like the original names of famous people. I think it's a cool book. I haven't looked that much at the vampire book yet, but I plan to today. That one basically contains the history and folklore about vampires. And I already looked at the Manga one, and there's a lot of useful information there. When I get my glasses back and can see well I'm going to practice drawing again.

As for my writing, it's going to be a while before I can get writing on my story again, since I have to first get money to fix my laptop, then send it out to get fixed. So I'm thinking of focusing on one of my other stories for now, which I have in a notebook, and I'm going to try to add to it. I don't like not writing and I have a bunch of ideas that I want to use. So if I can't use my laptop I'll have to do it old school. All of my stories started off in notebooks anyway, so I'm going back to my old notebook for now. I actually have about three stories in notebooks that I can choose from, two of them I have in my laptop too but I never added anything to them so it wouldn't matter if I added more into the notebook. So I'm going to read them over, and choose which one I want to edit and continue right now. I think it will be a nice change to actually write with a pen/pencil for once since it's been such a long time. It's good to get away from the electronics that people rely so much on. This should be refreshing. :]

As for today, I think I might be reading a lot, from both the books I bought and my three stories. By the end of the day I will have the story that I'm going to be working on chosen. (By the way, this definitely feels like DeJaVu.) But I'm not going to let the lack of having a laptop keep me from writing when I want to write. And that's that. I think I'm going to restart the process of getting my eyes used to contacts again, meaning I'll wear them for two hours today, then three tomorrow, and so on. Eventually I'll be able to wear them for twelve hours, which is going to be awesome.

Well, I'm off to find those three notebooks. After I pick one I have to make character profiles and all that, so it should keep me busy. Maybe I'll go make something to eat too.

And just for the record, I really hate these old pair of glasses that I have to wear! Okay, ranting done. =P

Alright, off to do things now! Thanks for reading! <3

Hey everyone.

Today I'm not feeling that well. Yesterday I had an anxiety attack which wasn't cool. I'm also having some problems obtaining my anti-anxiety medication which is not good because I need those so I can stay calm. I've been trying to get in touch with my pharmacy but they said that the medication wasn't refilled yet. And I have to take another one in about two hours. But yeah, I'm not going to work myself up. Nothing bad is going to happen.

My room is so hot right now and I'm not sure why. I even have my window open and yesterday I had a fan on. Oh well, if nothing can be done then there's no use worrying about it. Today I have to go bring my glasses to Lenscrafters so they can be fixed, and I also have to call about my contacts. (Which should be funny.)

I did just get one thing done, I called up my pharmacy and my doctors office about the medication so hopefully now they won't screw up. But I'm sure now I'm going to have to wait like four hours. For some reason I'm just really tired today, and it seems I can't have my mom drop off my glasses because I need to be there. I'd rather wait until I feel better and put up with my old glasses for now. It's not that I'm lazy it's just that I'm already feeling anxious and going out isn't going to help. Yes, I'm a hermit when I get all anxious.

I guess today I'm just going to try and keep my mind busy, so I'll probably play a game or play with my dog Gizmo. I'm not up for writing right now, I might be later though. I'm just going to relax and take things slow. I'll probably make some calls that I have to make so I can at least get something done that needs to be done. I'm going to call about my contacts after I'm done with this post and then try to call about cash assistance. And on that note, I'm still waiting for the enrollment papers for the direct deposit that I'm supposed to get. If I don't get that then my insurance is going to be put on hold and someone like me who's always getting medical attention and needs to pay for medication can't afford to lose insurance.

It seems that both my friend and I are feeling down. I'm not sure why either. Lately I have been feeling depressed; I haven't been taking any medication for it because I need to see a doctor for that and that means I have to make an appointment. But I've been holding off on that because oi thought that I could just ignore it. I was doing a good job of that but the more days go by the more I notice how depressed I am. But yeah, I'm not looking for pity I'm just letting this stuff out.

For now, I'm going to take my leave and try to get some things done. I'll try to post later if I don't fall asleep early.

Thanks for reading, I'm sorry it was all depressing and such.