Craziness xD

Hello all, it's 4:32 PM right now and I'm not quite sure what to write about.

I didn't update yesterday, but then again there wasn't much to update- it was a boring day. The same goes for today. At the moment I'm just watching some TV. The show I'm watching is about UFOs or something, I'm not really paying much attention to it. I'm thinking of working on my novel until Tim gets home from work, so when I'm done here that's what I'll be doing.

I'm feeling really tired today and I'm not sure why. But I'm trying to stay up so that I won't sleep all day again. I need something to do I guess. (Which is why I'm going to work on my story when I finish here!)

Well, I'm not going to do the QotD or anything special today. I'm just updating to let everyone know I'm still here. XP

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Anyway, sorry for the short and lazy post everyone. o.O;; I guess it's an off day for me.

I almost forgot, but everyone should go check out this blog! :)

It's pretty cool and I think you should all check it out!

Alright, I'm going to write now. :'D

Laters.

Hey all! It has been three days since I last wrote, but I'm back!

First off, let me tell you some things that have been going on: Sunday I was a bit lazy and didn't update, but Monday I was extremely busy due to my trip to Connecticut and New York. So I think I'll skip describing my lazy day and go straight to yesterday.

I woke up around 7 AM and got ready to leave to Connecticut with Tim and my in-laws to go see Jerry Springer. The trip there was fun, and I kept taking random pictures of myself and Tim in the van. We got out at a rest stop and got some good food, (I can't remember the name of the place that we bought it from though,) and by the time we got to CT it was around 2:30 PM. We waited in line, and then again indoors, and we finally got into the show around 5:00 PM. So we were all pretty frustrated when we got in. But the show made up for the wait big time. It was funny as hell, and pretty cool to actually be in the audience of a show like that. I didn't expect myself to get into it, but I was standing up and yelling "Jerry, Jerry!" along with everyone else and it was awesome. Not to mention we got free stuff, thanks to Tim's really tall dad. He caught like six things. :]

After that we made the trip to White Castle. It wasn't as crazy as Harold and Kumar's trip, but it was still good nonetheless. The burgers were great, and so were the chicken rings and onion rings. I'm really happy that I can say I've gone to White Castle. After that we went to the Empire State Building and went to the 86th floor, but it was raining so the visibility was only ten miles. I thought it was funny how many people they had working there, well actually just standing there so we would know where to go. And they were dressed up in these cute little red outfits. My phone was dead by then so I couldn't take any pictures, but Tim did and they came out great. This is one that he took!

After that we got some pizza, and what they say is true. New York has they best pizza, I loved it. We walked around for a little afterwards and bought some souvenirs at the gift shop, and I fell asleep on the way home (we arrived at 4 AM!)

All in all it was a great day and I hope to go back to New York sometime in the future so I can explore a bit more. I really want to see the Statue of Liberty, and get another slice of pizza! It was yummy. :]

Now back to the present- I haven't done much today since I was sleeping until about 1 PM, and right now it's almost 5:30 PM, and I have to go to my group. So it's not going to be a very productive day. I'm thinking of just relaxing with a book after my group and waiting for Tim to get home. Then I'll spend time with him. :D

Alright, time for the...

Question of the Day:

*In a story, would you prefer for a character to develop a relationship with a romantic interest, or for the character to already have a relationship?*

Leave answers in the comment section  b e l o w  XD

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That's it! I hope everyone had a great day! I'll be back tomorrow. :]

Laters.

Awake early again... even earlier than yesterday. This is getting ridiculous. (I started writing this post at 7:15 AM)

Well, yesterday was pretty good. I got out of the house, which was on my list, thanks to the help of two people. (They are awesome!) I was feeling out of it though so I probably seemed like I wasn't having fun but I was. These new pills I've been taking are fucking me all up, as most pills do when I first start taking them. It'll probably take me a week or so to adjust to them. Until then I'm going to be sluggish- just a warning. I would really like to go out today, but as usual, I have no plans. All I know is I really don't want to be home. "/

Today I'm going to have a lot of time on my hands, and honestly I feel like sleeping the day away since I already know it's going to be uneventful. I know that I need to stay awake though, otherwise I'll get all nocturnal again and that wouldn't be good for me. (It would be very bad, actually.) So the next best thing is doing something that will make time pass by quicker.

I'm not going to make a list today. I guess this will be a new rule- on weekends, I don't make a list. I'll just do what I feel like doing. And what I feel like doing is either reading all day or getting into my novel. I think getting lost in my novel would be a good choice since I won't be thinking about myself and what I'm dealing with; I'll be focused on the characters in my story. So that's what I'll be doing, I guess.

Or... I'll play a video game. Maybe Final Fantasy XIII, Kingdom Hearts: BBS, .Hack//G.U., or Red Dead Redemption. Possibly even a zombie game since I feel like destroying things. I just hate playing horror games by myself. So maybe that's not a good idea. Whatever, I'll figure it out.

Anyway, I've been thinking... about life and certain things. I really want to go back to college. Or at least get a job. I've been working on making those things happen, such as calling people, etc. What I really want is to move out of this house. I don't have a problem with my parents or anything, I just want to feel more independent. I really want to have a better social life too... I hardly go out and interact with people. Of course having social anxiety doesn't help- but neither does staying in my house all day. I want to join a fun group or something, make some plans, and actually go out. I think I really need that, so I'm going to try and make it happen. I just don't know where to start... Any suggestions?

Okay, I think it's time for the...

Question of the Day:

*Would you prefer a story to follow just one character the whole way through, or switch between different characters?*

Leave answers in the comment section  b e l o w  :]

OR if you feel like contacting me, about this post, my novel, or just for random feedback- please fill out the form to the right. All suggestions/comments are welcome.

That's it for today, I hope you all enjoy your weekend! And thank you for reading. :D

Laters.

Yesterday sucked.

I can't even start to explain how much it sucked. But I suppose I can say what happened. I had to go to the hospital for something I thought I had dealt with, but apparently not. So now I feel like I have to start all over with this stupid problem and get over it, again. I was so fucked up when I got home because of the meds they had me on, and the only thing I'm glad about is that they didn't keep me there. (Like they usually do.) And now I'm awake, early again, which is weird but I'm not surprised this time. I feel like shit, so to anyone who reads this, you'll know why I won't be very responsive today.

Anyway, my list is going to be the same one from yesterday, except with a few minor changes.

1. Stay awake!
2. Read a book.
3. Work on my novel.
4. Don't think about it.
5. Laundry.
6. Talk to my friends.
7. Keep myself busy. (I might need assistance though.)
8. Really, really, try not to sleep during the day.
9. Figure out what's going on with my Uncle.
10. Fill out *more*  information forms for characters.
11. Try not to dwell on negative thoughts. "/ (Especially today.)
12. Go out if I have the chance to. Maybe.
13. Have a productive day.

Yeah, I was lazy. No, I don't care if this wasn't very creative. "/

Anyway, I'll probably go start writing since I need a distraction. Oh, and write back to some people and explain what happened. Yup, that's about it for now. Sorry for the short post.

Question of the Day:

*Do you prefer a novel with more dialogue than description, vise-versa, or equal amounts of both?*

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Alright, well I'm off to get my day started. I hope you all have a nice day!

Laters.

Hey all, it's my second day in a row updating and even I'm surprised. >.>;; It's a good thing though!

I woke up pretty early this morning, around 7:00 AM and ended up rescheduling my appointment. I'm actually kind of relieved about certain things but I won't get into details about my medical problems here.

Last night was pretty fun, I was on Formspring having two different conversations with the same person, and for some reason it was highly addictive just waiting for the next question to be asked. It's pretty cool, and I was up until 3 AM just writing back and forth. I ended up missing two things on my list from yesterday, one of which was not going to sleep during the day and the other being exercise. Otherwise I did pretty well. And I still slept through the night so taking a nap didn't hurt as much as I thought it would.

I just finished watching Fight Club, and that movie is amazing. The title of my post is a quote from that movie. But I won't get into it since I don't want to sound like a raging fangirl. You should all go see it, though.

I feel like my day is already at its end even though it's only 12 PM. I still have all day to do things, but I'm  not sure what I want to do. I'm glad I got to spend time with Tim, since he woke up at the same time as me. I think when he goes to work I might work on my novel. Or read, whichever I feel like doing at the time.

I think I'll make a list again. I'll try to make a habit out of this. Here goes:

1. Stay awake!
2. Read a book.
3. Work on my novel.
4. Call those people at Bamsi. Ugh.
5. Clean my room.
6. Talk to my friends. xD
7. Keep myself busy. (I might need assistance though.)
8. Look up information on how to get things published.
9. Make plans to go to groups.
10. Fill out information forms for characters.
11. Try not to dwell on negative thoughts. "/
12. Go out if I have the chance to.
13. Have a productive day.

Okay, all done. Hopefully I can do everything there, but if I can't it's alright. I think I'll get the cleaning and calling people out of my way first so that I can focus on my novel afterwards. If you'd like to know what my novel is about, scroll down to yesterday's post and read about it. I'm always looking for opinions and suggestions. :]

Anyway, before I skip off to do some cleaning, I have a question for all of you.

*Which is more appealing to you- a first person or third person point of view for a novel?*

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Hello all, I didn't forget to write. :)

I'm awake very early today, well, at least it's early for me. It's almost 9:00 AM and usually I would still be asleep at this time. But I'm glad I'm awake because I can get more accomplished. I already made an appointment with my doctor for tomorrow, so now I don't have to worry about calling. However, I am worried about the reason I had to call. I've been having this ongoing problem and it seems to have gotten worse, to the point where even my boyfriend is concerned enough to push me to go to my doctor. (And he is the most laid back person I know.) So right now I'm pretty worked up about it, and I just hope it turns out to be nothing. Maybe I'll find out tomorrow, but I don't think it's likely. They'll probably run some blood work first. Then I'll be anticipating... But enough of that. Let's move on, shall we?

I'm thinking of writing a different novel, (don't worry, I'm still working on the other one as well), but I'm not quite sure what to write about. I just want to work on something different for a while, since I'm having a block on my other novel. I'm hoping that concentrating on something else will get my creative juices flowing again. Then when I go back to my other novel I'll have some ideas. I've been reading and re-reading all the novels that I've ever started and I'm thinking of maybe just working on one of those. I'm leaning towards a story that centers around a girl who has been "teleported" into another world, where she meets other people who have encountered the same problem, (from different worlds as well) and they must work together to figure out why they're there, and the mystery of the world beyond their world.

Does that sound like a good plot for a story? Any feedback on this would be great. It's fantasy/action/adventure with some romance. And now I feel like working on it. xD

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I think I'll make a list of what I want to get done today:
(?) = Would like to do, but it's alright if I don't

1. Call my doctor. (done)
2. Work on my novel.
3. Stay awake and not take any naps.
4. Talk to my friends and try to make some plans.
5. Exercise, even if it's just jumping jacks or running up and down the stairs.
6. Spend some time with my Aunt, if she comes to visit.
7. Get some drawing done (?)
8. Continue reading that book (?)
9. Play a video game (?)
10. Keep myself busy.

And I think that's it! It's nothing too difficult, so I should be able to do it. The hardest thing will be staying awake though, since I usually take a nap. I'm trying to break that habit, so I'm going to force myself to stay up by keeping my mind occupied.

Alright, onto the second thing on my list. I'll update tomorrow, or later. We'll see if I can do all the things on my list. :D

Laters.

I can't believe the last time I updated this was February 3, 2010. Time really does pass you by when you least expect it. So many things have happened, I'm not sure where to start.

I guess the first thing I'd like to mention is how badly I've been neglecting this website. I used to come on here often and update daily, but lately I've been either too busy, or just outright lazy. I'm hoping to change that and update here daily like I used to.

Lately there have been a lot of things on my mind, like finding a way to go to college, or finding a job. I really want to make some new friends, because my social life is lacking. It sucks being in a house all day with nothing to do. These last few days I've been calling people and putting things into motion. I really need to stop procrastinating and do what needs to be done. Then maybe I'll feel a little happier. Maybe.

Other than that, I've been having the same old problems. Family issues, money issues, social issues. I guess those are all things that would be issues for anyone, but my way of dealing with them is what makes it suck. I still have to deal with these anxiety attacks, which doesn't help, and my depression has been getting worse as well. It doesn't help that my therapist moved to Connecticut so now I have no one to vent to (that actually cares, or at least pretends to.) Not to mention everything else in my life that used to be planned has

Right now I'm just feeling a bit unwanted, and I can't stand this feeling. I really just need someone to talk to, or just someone who will keep my mind off stupid things. What I really want is a good friend, and I don't think that's asking for much...

It's funny how I'm writing about my problems and one of them stares me in the face. Out of nowhere, my family issues come into play, and now I'm a bit irritated.  These people came to visit, so now I have to hear this assholes loud voice until they decide to leave. I had no choice but to blast my music. And now Tim is going to come downstairs and I'm going to be irritated again...

I don't think I'm unreasonable. I just don't think he understands how much it upsets me to just hear them, let alone see them. If he could feel what I feel maybe he'd understand. But it's impossible to explain it to him, it just ends up being an argument with no solution. And then we both end up upset.

I'm not sure what to do now though, writing this down does seem to help.

Okay... Well, I'm going to get off of this and deal with these issues the best way I can.

Wish me luck.