Craziness xD

Well today was a mix of boredom, happiness, and sadness.

Bittersweet is the best word to describe it. The only word I feel fits.

To start off, it was just a normal day, a normal Halloween. I didn't dress up or anything- instead I watched a bunch of "scary" movies for most of the day. I was just relaxing and watching The Nightmare Before Christmas. Timothy was out in the garage scaring the little kids, he was dressed up and had his face covered. There was a CD playing with spooky Halloween sounds to set the mood. Then the unexpected happened, I got to see my two neices.

I guess I should stop here and explain a little bit about this situation. Long story short, my sibling has a grudge against me and because of that I'm basically forbidden to see my neices. Taking my neices away from me is a form of punishment. I don't give a fuck about her but I do care about the kids, and they obviously know that. So they use it as a form of punishment. So yeah, back to what happened.

So, I got to see my two neices- I'm guessing the right planets were alligned or something. And I was happy to see them, yet at the same time it made me depressed as hell, because there was a different aura about them. Almost like I was a stranger to them, like things were changed. And like they were never going to be the same. It was awkward, the older of my neices was dressed as a cute princess but I choked up whenever I wanted to say something to her. My other neice, who's younger and doesn't yet know how to walk or talk was dressed as a pirate. She didn't seem like she changed much, but that's to be expected for reasons I won't get into. But my older neice who can talk and is really smart just didn't act the same with me as she did before, she had hesitation in her eyes and actions. Almost like her parents had told her I was an evil person, like I was some type of disease. That's the part that made me sad. And hurt. And it made me want to go downstairs and slap my sibling across her face, but of course she and her "fiance" didn't come into the house, they were in the garage. And it serves them right, they'd better not dare walk into this house after what they did to my mother and me.

Just because my sibling had the balls to bring my neices here, for whatever reason, doesn't put her anywhere in my good graces. But whatever, apparently from what I'm hearing they didn't even want me to see them in the first place. "It just happened" so they let it go. That's what Timothy is telling me.

Well, I'm done with this shit. I'm done venting. They will get what they deserve. And that's what I'm going to keep telling myself.

I'll just focus on the one good thing about tonight- I got to see my neices.

Time to leave. I hope everyone had an enjoyable Halloween. And thanks for reading.