Craziness xD

Well here I am up at 6AM, early as usual. Today I'm planning to work on my story/stories. I have the whole day ahead of me so I have plenty of time to do what I want. That's if I don't fall asleep ^^; I just tried to get in touch with my cousin because I know that she has the game Persona and I wanted to ask her some questions about it. But it seems I can't get in touch with her, she is probably getting ready for school.

I said I was going to make a To-Do List and I'm going to write it down now. Maybe if I think of anything else I'll add it in another post or edit this one. I'm going to try and sort these by priority but if I think of something to write down that's out of place I'm just going to add it anyway.

My To-Do List:

1. Get back into my therapy sessions that I stopped going to-- I am someone who has some psychological issues and I've been neglecting getting help because I felt like it was not working. But I need to try again because doing nothing about it is worse. Then I also need to update my medications that I've been taking because I haven't had an evaluation in a while and I need a new antidepressant that works.

2. Pick one story and focus on getting it done-- I have been actively writing I just need to pick a story and stick to it. Based on my story descriptions, if anyone would like to share an idea of which story I should work on I'm open to ideas. I'm leaning more towards my Shira, Seth, and Raiden story. Or my story about the evil/good Kings.

3. Work on trying to reapply for disability OR try getting a job online-- Actually, maybe both at the same time is better since applying for disability takes a long time. But I do need a source of income and I need to try and do something instead of lazying about not taking any action.

4. Try to get all my medical bills paid and re-open my bank account-- That's for obvious reasons. Not paying bills will result in bad credit, which I don't want to have at a young age since I would one day like to own a house. Then opening a bank account so that I can save money is always good, since I'm trying to prepare for the future.

5. Stop being lazy and try to go on walks or get at least 20 minutes of exercise in daily-- I have a goal to lose some pounds and I won't get anywhere if I just stay in bed all day. I was thinking that I could achieve this by walking my dog Gizmo everyday or talking a walk with my mother at the park. Even both would be better. And if I don't want to go outside just maybe dancing to music will do something. Although I'm thinking of buying a Tae-bo video because I did one once and I thought it was fun. Also, drinking more water and eating less meat will help with this.

6. Try to go out more-- hanging out with either Steph or my cousin Jessy (when she's available) would help me out. Usually I'm in my room all day and I think it would be good to get some fresh air and keep in touch with the people that I care about. After all staying alone at home will only distance me from these people and that is something I don't want to happen.

7. Spend more time with family-- Timothy and I both need to do this, since we both have a lot of family that we don't keep in touch with. I know that he would like to spend more time with his Mama Ana, a very nice person that I had the chance to meet on her birthday celebration. I want to keep in touch with my Godparents who live in Florida, which is hard but I know I can write a letter. I'm just not sure about calling since I don't know if my phone will charge me for long distance. Them and my Aunt and Uncle that live about 10 minutes away. They are pretty cool too and I feel like I don't spend time with them like I should.

Things I can do immediately:

• Call about getting back into therapy- because all I need to do is make a call and schedule an appointment. 
• Pick a story- which I'll probably have to choose on my own if I don't get any feedback. 
• Try to go out more- which I hope will be easy, I can try to hang out with Steph if she's not busy. 
• Start eating healthier- I can do this since I have the right things at hand, like water, salad, and fruits.
  

Things that I need to wait for:

• Applying for disability/finding a job- this is because applying for anything takes time, and disability may reject me again which means I would have to reapply. Finding a job is just hard because of the economy and it will also be time consuming. 
• Paying bills/opening bank account- can't do this without money, and I hardly have anything at all. I'm lucky that my mother and Timothy try to help me when they can. Opening a bank account would require me either obtaining disability or getting a job so that is going to take a while. 
• Exercise- this will be hard for me because I'm lazy and I get anxious when I go out alone. I think I would rather buy a Tae-bo DVD and do it that way, but I need money first. (but the minute I get a DVD I will put this on the other list!!)
  
• Spend time with family- this shouldn't be too hard; I just need to find out when they are available, involving my parents would probably make this easier to do.

So that's my list! I shared it with Timothy and he said it was a good one, which makes me happy. I want to try and do all of these things but I'm not going to rush into anything and set myself up for failure. I want to take my time and make sure everything gets done. By the end of today I will pick which story I want to work on. And I have to make sure that I'm not biased with my decision. I have to think logically too, and pick a story that I believe people would be interested in reading. So I'll probably be fighting with myself for a bit. I might end up narrowing it down to two stories, making one my priority and the second story the one I'll work on when I have some free time.

But, now I've made my list and I'm going to try hard to make sure I do everything on it! =]

Thanks for listening! (This was a really long post, I'm sorry people!)